There are many reasons for my disappearance. The big ones:
- I have a psycopath for a new boss who believes I should spend every waking hour in office obsessing about market share and 'killing' the competition,
- there is a new project that I'm working on with my friends and it's taking up the little time left after work,
- my patterns. The serial quitter patterns ( I've written about earlier) have been at play and hence I decided to park writing for a while.I'm making an effort to start again. Let's see how it goes.
Courtesy my new exhausting situation at work, I have been watching a lot of TV lately. Being a passive activity, it allows me to give my mind a holiday. There was something that I watched a few days back, perhaps experienced is a better word to describe it, that really made me want to sit up and think.
I watched the live rescue of the 33 Chilean miners stuck in the mine, half a mile under the earth's surface, for over 69 days. It was a very powerful experience! I was truly moved by the courage and fearlessness of these people. I get goosebumps every time I think of it. Trapped with bleak chances of rescue (first contact was made on day 23-24 I think), not knowing if they will ever see sunlight or their families for 70 days - I'm amazed at the strength of the human spirit. So glad it was a happy ending!
A near death experience can make one fearless and help clearly understand the truth of life and what matters in the end. One of the miners put it so beautifully - 'the only things that matter in life are family & friends, seeing your children smile and the beauty of mother nature. When you know that this may be 'the end' these are the only things you value and yearn for'.
I am thankful this wisdom is available to me without the scary experience. Infact most people are aware of this truth and talk about it but it's generally at a very superfluous level. I have met very few people who have been able to imbibe it and change the way they go about life. I aspire to change the way I approach life, the time & effort I spend on nurturing my key priorities. Somehow I'm not able to make permanent changes. I keep getting caught up in the rut and pushing my priorities for later. I need to find a way to change that for good. Any suggestions/advice?
